Shifting My Mindset

Hi there friends.

I know I have been gone for quite some time. I couldn’t seem to get back into things. It has been thing after thing around here, and we cannot seem to catch a break.

I’ll skip the life update, nothing important has happened. The most interesting things in the last 6 or 7 months, were the historic ice storm with a week long power outage, and the most recent heatwave where temps rose to 115 degrees Fahrenheit. Yikes! It was tough but bearable. We made it through.

Nothing else has been going on with us. Just regular school and work for all of us. We have had less and less time together which sucks but we got to take our first trip since the pandemic started in early June, so I cannot wait to recap all that for you! 🙂

I’m here to talk about something else though.

Depression & Anxiety

It is no secret that I’ve struggled with anxiety for many years, but it took me even longer to admit and accept that I also was depressed. The first instance where my depression showed up was when my kiddo was 2 and a half years old. If you’ve been around long enough, I might have talked about it as if it were anxiety. It still took me several years to come to terms with it and I do still struggle with both every few months or so.

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I haven’t been diagnosed officially but I have all the symptoms. I have tried to manage it as best as I can and I think I am making some pretty good strides. That being said, I am ready to start making changes in my lifestyle to manage it better and to really get somewhere. Which brings me to the next thing….

Perspective

I mentioned in my last post, Rewind 2020: The Good Times, that I had been feeling stuck and unmotivated and that usually makes me feel worse the more I think about it. Lately, I have been taking those feelings and using them to push me into the right direction. It’s funny how your mindset can change things. Even this post, originally, had a negative title. 

Now that my mental health has improved, I wanted to turn things around for myself. I have always been a believer in The Law of Attraction and in fact, I was so deep into it before I became pregnant. Long story short, I put my dreams and career on hold to care for my little one and as hard as those years were for me, they are something I am also proud of. And now that my son has gotten older and more independent, I made the decision to go back to work last September and re-start my career.

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Now that I’ve been working and recently even got a small raise, I feel like I want to start working on myself more and maybe even start making my own dreams come true. It will be a tough and long road, I have many goals and ambitions. I always get stressed out because I feel like I’m behind everyone else. Everyone is starting their own business, has their dream job, a home, etc. Meanwhile, I’m comparing myself to others with what I don’t yet have. I am hoping that as I work on myself, I find myself along the way.

I definitely want to start my own business, I have a lot of ideas. But nothing is set in stone. I also still want to continue writing for both of my blogs and finally take the leap into monetizing them and making something out of that. I feel like I deserve to reap the benefits of this thing that started out as a hobby. I have had lots of opportunities of getting free products to review thanks to IG and for that I am grateful. All I have to do is manage my time better and start doing what I once did.

Manifestation

If you follow the lovely Jennie, you will see her talking about this often. It was something I forgot during some dark years and I was so glad that she took this upon herself and changed her life for the better. In turn she has helped me realize and remember the potential I also have in me. It took me a while to get here, I dealt with depression and anxiety this winter, and the global pandemic, and my job didn’t make that easier on me, but I have bounced back and here I am. That being said, I wanted to share some things that I manifested last year.

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I don’t know how people use bucket lists, but I use them to manifest something I want. Again, Law of Attraction. Last year I dedicated my 2020 BL to “happiness and lots of family fun”. I focused on travel and personal goals and I am happy to say that we made it happen!

Due to the pandemic, we couldn’t travel out of state, but we still did lots of road trips within our state. 🙂 My Summer BL had more traveling items and those memories are great to look back on, read my RECAP to see what items we crossed off. On this post, I will focus on my 2020 BL. 🙂

The first two BL items were crossed off before we went into lockdown:

  1. Las Vegas Round 2
  2. See the Death Valley
  3. Go to the beach

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As for my personal goals, I was able to cross off four out of five!!

  1. Meet Jennie
  2. Get a Subaru Impreza WRX
  3. Get a job
  4. Learn to drive manual car

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Looking back at my personal goals, I fully realized the power of putting things out into the universe for manifestation.

BONUS MANIFESTATION:

One manifestation I completely forgot about was money.  Prior to moving out in December, I felt like our living situation would put us in the hole. My solution was to get a job (which I manifested). Closer to October/November it became clear that we had to move out. Again, I worried about barely making ends meet and not being able to help out.

When one person panics, the other one stays calm. Funny how that works too, right? Well, my husband was the one panicking that we wouldn’t have enough money for our moving expenses, rent and deposit on the apartment. One thing I kept repeating over and over to my husband to ease his mind was “don’t worry, we will figure it out, the money will come”.  And sure enough, it did. Money flowed and we were fine. I would like to keep manifesting more money because living out on our own has been more expensive than we initially thought. Not to mention our my frivolous spending kind of set us back a bit. But I am positive that money will come flowing right back. 

Seriously guys, manifesting works in mystery ways.

That being said, I do plan on shifting my mindset as well as changing up my lifestyle. Eating healthy, exercising, getting more sleep and spending more time on the hobbies I love; blogging and makeup. I have to believe good things are in store for me. I have been patient, but I think things are mine for the taking. It’s my time now!

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What is one thing you are hoping to manifest this year?

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7 thoughts on “Shifting My Mindset

  1. Sorry to hear about your anxiety and depression, if you ever need a chat or want to vent send me a private message on Instagram 🙂 life gets heavy sometimes and taking time out for you and looking after yourself is the best thing you can do, glad you’re feeling more positive 🙂

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  2. I’m glad you all have made it through the ice storm and heat wave; I’ve been thinking of you all and I can’t imagine what things have been like. I’m sorry that you are dealing with anxiety and depression. I’ll try to be more present on here and on IG, so if you ever need a friend, I’m a few clicks away!

    I’m excited for you and I got a little teary eyed reading about your change of perspective and all the ambitions you have for your future because it resonated with me. It feels like I’m stuck and I’m unsure of where I’d like to go from here and I’m 26! I’m having a tough time with not comparing myself to others and where they are in their own journey, but I’m working on it also.

    I am wishing you the best and sending you all kinds of positivity today, Rossy! Hope your week is well. xx ♥

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    1. thanks so much girly! it makes me so happy that someone related to me at least on some level, because it makes me feel less alone. ❤ I know that we are all in different stages of our paths and that our time will come eventually, but i do get impatient and that's also another thing i need to work on lol. but yes, comparing myself to others happens a lot to me too so i totally get it.

      thanks so much for stopping by! i am hoping i can come back to blogging for good. it brings me such happiness, simply writing and it gives me motivation to do more 🙂

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  3. BABEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! I love you! Your little mention filled me with so much gratitude, you bought a tear to my eye but seriously hun, first of all what I want to say is you can ALWAYS reach out to me if need be okay!!? Always message me if you need to talk I got you ❤ and yes it is your time for beautiful beautiful blessings and definitely BLOG SUCCESS! You deserve it my love! I am so proud of you and so excited for you that you are acknowledging how worthy you are of all the good! And I am so proud of you with your job and manifesting money, honestly – a QUEEN!! literally, I am so so proud of you hun and everything you've been through has only propelled you to even greater happiness. You're taking steps for more joy and bliss, happiness, and love and this is magickal!! Love you so so much!!! and guess what hehe I just accidently typed 111 instead of the explanation points at first – Angel numbers. I love you! I can't wait to reunite with you again soon – you're amazing!

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    1. ily too!! ❤ ❤ ❤

      thanks so much, your support is always cherished! ❤
      i feel like i need to keep manifesting many things, but i need to keep up with it on a daily basis 🙂 i just forget sometimes so i want to bring back my bullet journal and include some kind of affirmations list and maybe a gratitude section 🙂

      i love you so much too girl! thanks for always being there and being so supportive throughout the years. you're the sweetest and the best! ❤

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